I haven't really felt like posting on the blog over this last week. Andy has just got back from the EO in Germany and is really tired. I think he had quite a good time. It was very hard being by myself having just lost Abbey but I am very lucky as I have good friends and family. Karen, Dan and Mac kept me company and other friends phoned and sent me texts which was really kind. Karen is a true friend and has been really supportive to me.
I went off to Newlands on Sunday and had a nice day but lots of tears each time I bumped into someone who said they were sorry for my news. Sara & Steve bought me a lovely rose which I'm going to plant hopefully alongside my miniature rhododendrons (one each for Lizzie and Bess) that Mum bought me.
I am really struggling coming to terms with losing Abbey; I know it will get better with time but at the moment I just can't seem to get her out of my head. She was my soul mate and partner. Abbey always followed me around, not just as she got older but throughout her life. She only ever had eyes for me and only wanted to play or do agility because I wanted to do it. She wasn't that bothered by agility per se but because she loved to do stuff with me and I wanted to do agility then that's what she wanted also. She was totally motivated by our special relationship and I know in my heart I'll never experience that again. She was truly my once in a lifetime dog.
I have made this little tribute to her so I can look back over our years together, hopefully one day with a sense of joy. Right now it just makes me cry but I wanted to do it for her (and for me) so that she isn't forgotten, that I just couldn't bear. She will surely never be forgotten in my heart but I need to think she won't be forgotten by others who knew her over the years. For some reason it feels very important to me.
My sweet little Abbey I will always love you and I hope you're chasing rainbows with Molly.